I’m sorry it’s been so long since we’ve spoken. It’s been so long since I’ve thought about you, but recently you came into my mind again.
I’ve been so caught up in my day to day life that I forgot how important you were to me. It was only after a friend of mine passed away and I could see the dreams and potential that were lost with their passing that I realised I too have that potential.
I realised that I could die with you, my ambitions and goals inside of me and the world wouldn’t benefit from all I have to offer. It is too important to the world and the people I come in contact with to let my fears, doubts or insecurities hold me back from following you.
I just wanted you to know how important you are to me, even though sometimes I don’t want to admit it because it’s easier to just coast along and not focus on you. It’s hard to follow you sometimes because it’s out of my comfort zone and pushes me further than I think I can go. It’s easier to stay where I’m comfortable, where no-one bothers me, rejects me or slags me for following you. It’s easier to not fail, not have to make mistakes and stay doing the normal 9-5.
What overcomes these fears for me is knowing when I follow you, that it changes people’s lives. Hearing how they’ve benefited from me following my dreams and helping them inspires me to keep following you. I realise how important you are to me, but also how important you are to other people. I can’t be selfish and let my fears stop me from following you. For all the times I haven’t followed you, I’m sorry – it won’t happen again – and if it does just know you are still just as important – maybe at that moment I just don’t want to admit it.
Thank you for still believing in me. Thank you for sticking with me and thank you for your patience with me.
Looking forward to speaking again soon!